and Reconciliation

Our 44.27th-year per-i.t., which smackbang within the-middle† 10.18th Olympiad-†of is we give. One-six and nine-five A.D.

Faerieland Appellate-court-of toward-the outlawing of Changing that †Children the-†stealing-of and the-†substitution-of [is] is.

Topic: of-to land own NAND to vote Sub-topic: Years through-to 2961 ([4.9.21]) per-i.t. So toward-the farther-aforementioned-such so the otherbound descendants (who from these-much-farther-aforementioned abductees are) as follows must speak:

Note: this-when and subsequent-from note I and note all. Before/under the-darkness and the-watching light and mother of unraped-being whose avatar that in the wealds [is] I also before/under am and Faer Radiant Holyself. e.g. Artea and God so-as-said I† who of the Changed-Ones descended am singly-so and so without-trickery hosts of the-changelings' kinship without go-forth. And †same-again of their-descendants-in-the-uplands. And also †same-again of their family entire. Note: I so-as-said 'what[mysterious-that]-and-ever-and-totally debt of blood and/or title and/or property my clan and kinfolk that fae-from owed are as such/so the re:clade-of faerself and/or theirself in-of and as itself no-concern gives - without go-forth. And the/our right-in-full for-to seek and/or ask and/or from the closure thereof benefit to me it/we shall-give-not.

The most length-of period† the 120yearum-of without an execution — ifly formal or otherwise — of Incar'aufGaolaí'cerated †that-of from 49.43 to-today marks.

49.57 we give.

 

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Toward the Spidering in silver tiny letters of the back muscles and the abdomen of Red-of accuser'ya the following was:

And - and note-you-build. Again -you-build. Topic: a next what— that -you -build. And a next. Note you build. And — the building "as-said" you yourself break let. Note • As cracks form so build: As teeth chip: With the dust of ground-down-tissue ↑ dried-up-skin ↓ -yours the-cracks fill. Note. Build. Your lips you break. Mouth. Your tongue lengthwise you tear: Note: As-said: And again to-speak you learn. From the pit you break and -'rom the-muckinesses and the-sod and fangs for purchase you grab. Grab-on and say and — concerning saying-not — eke: • What noises you that you eke can-of do-of. Your 'receptacle that for any-sound† that comes is'–being to-with your mouth you give and †such ↑scream: What[mysterious that]ever word: -'ever voice. Note!: Of-in Now whether good or shit the word you are o your charge the word is. And note!: • Under feet nowily gather. Our lips we shape give. Broken we break. Yourself the-breaking is. Alive you are and being-alive the breaking is. Note!: "As-said" as through centuries crystals scour and scuff and grind-up so you break. As mountains die so— so break. As geysers melt you break. Note!: A single inch you shrink and break. — As said. — Break. Note-you-topple —aiee!— and also -totter and also — ↑ — and also as a cascade of prions so note[all-listening]-build. Note[all-listening]-build. You build. Infectious praxis and proteinaceous-praxis—'ya.

Reversely way-up on Stage within a clutch of tentacles elastic and yellow Night arched and bowed. Toward us her spine and — regarding what that on it written is — the pull quote that famous article of-Red's from is folded.

The-then-when-that fourily therapists-of ago was and this therapist† sídhe-of was a †one-who-was-the-same-one <why I toward the Coming-Forward a_bout an assault★ — per-the-topic and the-that-when-of a one that different and relevant was — as★ other-of so wasn't> asked and — and — and I said:

"'Notice: ''As-said' our toward-the-believing-of women we give' a great principle is."

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The therapist† nodded.

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"For Upland great it is. Tidy, how the sort of division upward-of there with them is, it is."

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Again the †same-entity nodded.

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"Here fey toward-the accusing fey-of it gives. Or - topic: aufGaolaí communities - women toward the accusing women-of it not-insufficiently-had-and-still-gives."

Whatever muscle that smile constantly-gave-into-perpetuity failed. The-jaw-region a slacking of negative space filled. A minute passed. "Exact" faer conclusion sounded. "Exact." The accuser Red-of Night was. On bare skin Night-of the words of defence Ruth-of and Counter-accusation written were. †That but-for the dick and breasts and pubic triangle and face the quote enclothed body† Night-of — and †this as a solar bridge so up-inside-of the-nest itself-of the ...grey... !gold! ...grey... strobe of the ceiling factory-of so our new and worse but necessary sun to welcome — o †that-one — toward-the seizure and toward-the jittering and backward toward-the wrenching.

Out-through Love for Red I rape-name-being our first event will-not-give. Q: Red — perhaps — Night Love [r.r.]never-gave never-gave? Q: sti'I'll-do still-do? Tricky it is. That we her our toward-facing-audience-speaking-being could never-give the catch that in her throat was meant. To-the Walls Modh Gallery-of her performance-as-such-and-so† —and-forth "as-is-said" of lines that Haecceities toward-quivering — a what that the Text Ur-of literature transmisogynistic-anti-of as nowily so it we name — keyish-of and from came and of other of her works finest-of sho'fiction'rt-cutups that with boxy ti'speakers'ny underneath also-so — such †the-aforementioned-same was — were pasted!; they to-the repetition of natural affect's-scratch so the-scratch audio-of as. Innocence the function seeped. With itself it literally rang. And more!; and of a kind new and violenter our/the innocence we/it gave — and per a weakness that as softness neither-nor even weaponisability it so given't was pled. "Sure," the installation that voice Red-of said: "I'm guilty if that what your sinews shiny gets is." Singular but multilocal at-of one-specific turn of the-hall-of the face of an inn'child'er this speaking bore and/or<-with-invitation-to-neither> — topic: toward-rear alcove another-of — the-monster seve'limbed'rally it gives (so the style of narration suggested). And: But "Question: seeming r.r.want like me to-of guilty-being be you want?" to-with it hi'rising'gh terminal and/or a tone questioning-of that to accent Red-of not native was all it shouted.

I-† that night to-at a ★What Winter-of that★ via-of thenly Spouse of thenly the-ex-mine - and †' - managed was (†'/who flutist and noisyness artist-of and at name-being Aura-of was) I/† to-with-myself her brought. (I and Ana who also as “Ana ‘Speed-of” [lit. ‘Speed-of’ reduced, e.g. ‘‘Eeed’-of] so known is and also the ex-oathed Aura-of is nowily againily together are.) In-person beautiful Red was— aye-and-was in-a way as to-her new and like it only that day been-discovered was so. Every day like that she still-is: To-at forgeting wakes and at each day Power-that-one againily discovers. The-effect (I as think so) but-for our wilting nightly-of and bursting daily-of gives it shortfire will-been/would. Self-us kissed but I with the friends whom I on the-patronage-of even within got departed. Just-about fortnights three-of of voice-chatting us through[emphasis] carried until (self-us-with comfortable) a visit friend-with through-from onto passageway-mine she came and the-conflict confessed:

“‘Ourselves-us on Disc so to-of hoping will-are-been/would’

-versus-

‘To yourself-yours you me let come.’”

(We so to-the Server-being cod et alia-of the sub-clade as Disc and as name foreveren't refer. ) Note: I offered: and to travel: I a station to-way-at she <not-that Portability-of is> own’t and at hers join will-can-been’t/wouldn’t: but to travel. So ourselves at the gate that of rearly and frontly enterability-of and front-lower is met and to’house’hers walked and the-station <which-‘Port’ ability-ofs> gathered and to’house’mine-back walked. We my place via the door upp’bac’window’kside’er-of entered-back and kissed and later (later-indeed) on -Disc- became. Everything than he/the-creative-force eternally-gives longer spent. Our/the insistence with trepidation simultaneous that I today premeditation its throws in was speculate to/of-of we/it give/s. Eyes’eyes’lockness-of eyes. Notice: Please already: Lo’god’ve-for me already you fuck unto I it wantn’t. This-when. Begging. Begged-been. Beggery empty-of made. ‘S-when. At a body one look can and that it strong is know but (no) one can’t. Itself every muscle that from-of itself any trace gives as secret so keeps. “Note-you-stop. Note-you-stop-indeed.” No like: Note genuinely: You stop. When. Physical-such possible upward and myself-of you offward to-get it isn’t and I what I said said so query<the is why it-still>. This why. To-the locking eyes-ey’ey’eyes’es’es-eyes. When she/the-anticreative-force [undefined]-up-inside-of is and a few extra repetitions notestop to-the trying-of are and “Note:

“«As-is-said» at-toward me you look.”

↓ (re: you-idiot) myself ↑ you rape she know mustn’t. If she knows when. Query:<what is why the fucked-through-Hell happening>: Ey’ey’eyes’es’es-ey’ey’eyes’es’es- ey’ey’eyes’es’es. Such-subsequent-from (and your-head nods) I it from came. So and as of Nature so our/the-ever to-a minimum of about-six of weeks <that sequence of events name-of obvious-of to-assign> we/it-ever give — I out-of love for Red which not still/yet-do. Our/the Braindisease there we/it give/s: within me it (prion-disease not because the motiff of prion her <that of the-what> ever was) impossibility produces. (But query: what it is if/when r.r.is a prion it not is?) Sequence of images Night-of exactly with my eyeforth[firsthand] visions body-mine-of at fun-taking under Red-hers-of aligns and beyond rea’doubt’sonish a not sour-unreality[lie] is. Say-can-of[sayable] that [is]. Say-can-of it [is]. Night sour-unreality not made. But no not nor-neither say-can-of sour-unreality Red made. *Quivering Haecceities* fa’technichified’ct-lack-with/of and altogetherly. I only ways negatively[lit. negative-creatively/femininely] to think been-found.

Out-of the-nest finger-nailparts-of Red-of to grace and hardylier toward stretchingness a red electrical dark device by** these raw nodes of current that** of now through this body woman-of shook and shook and the grace out-of thrashed so crown-being **held **was to-grasp arched. Every length miraculous contortions spread and upright the dick bolted and to-an overdebted-enough conclusion the performance jolted. Done-seizured and neck rolling her best she toward Yelling gave but scarcely audibly said:

“The dead we are and dying dreaming is. But note:[any-hearing-this-do-]dream. Note:[any-hearing-this-do-]dream.”

Offward the ∆ gold grey gold V sun blinkered and in the-dark “Dreams” she said and open to-a sound that like applause was yellowy the-tentacles fluttered and her name the factory-ish darkness cheered.

I in the later post-night for her searched. I to-talk or leastly at her and about-talking think-of to-look wanted. I the rooftop alone on like expect one would her found and of her cigarette the final third took and while between two of sheets of railside cement way-down the sun up-of Blurring watched smoked and anywhere but at her looked. I “Sorry” said.

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“Awful” Night said.

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“Query: whom with awful it was was? I you and obviously set Laea-of loved.”

But at me she looked. My boots. My pockets raincoat-of with changes of clothing to-of bulging and six of prescription medicines and pens and a notepad. With green covered. And at eyen-mine never. “Britt: query: what obvi-is-ous is?” And I remembered: How when a few hours ago herself within a cage plastic-of over ((the-shround and shadows despite) a onehundreda’head’ndtwenty audience this woman electro-tortured I watched and I as when her the rivets terminal-of so coursed these same words rethought

My pattern of alopecia from-before the-tilt hers matches

and

A[fewer-than-multiple] then-that-when-that you she raped. A the-one. Query: as r.r.did so much it did?

and

Everyone’n’t it hack can

and

Unexpected that I’m versus other strong and stronger. Other women. So-of comparison. To-be never planned.

and

“I’m that we and/both high and awake are sure,” I said. “But our/the next morning we give and my capacity shrunk semily is.”

And when/then I Night in/at the eyen looked and said:

“Query: Note rephrase: That you rephrase.”

All scuffed and silver of her face the bones and narrow arches the-sunrise flattened and a revised comment to-the lips and second cigarette to-the fingers summoned.

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“Query: for me r.r.were downstairs toward-the searching you were? Little and empty the crowd bits-of to-at stand your friends to-go/walk to-of around seek you to-seemed. Two of explanations re: the Hell-of-Dics your problem is and the-that: so fully the same you and that person are • so I this where safe not am (the-that likely) or a some-of-what commonly together-ours that help with you want or I give can think we own. A version of the kind of that “something from me you want • you it get can’t • literally our it from me to give we do not give” whats. Which. Note:look. If the second it is then I through genuineness and reality note:I-apologise but my the-when around how it turned over you saw. Hardly toward traction Red before you to-of hove getting was. The way it turned so you-indeed turned. Which q:grateful, q:okay, or q:comfortable with-regard-to? Ans.:no: I’m really not.”

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“The-word I toward-using-of not am «rape» is,” I said.

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“Which I to-use we/it never-gave.”

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“Query: I that yours penetration not was been-mistake r.r.am am?”

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With detached the-task-at-handness plausible victim-being gives: “If with you so we gave [meaning: it was] so-then.”

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“So-then. Three of ours we gave. Two of ours we gaven’t. So-then.”

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Up past the-jacket to-glance: my sinews and neck and snappable matter rods-of at. “Giving…”

The gaze to-the tracing-of: across own collarbone fingernail and to chin and the cheekbone curving and tapping and tapping: “Eyen.” She right at me looked. “Q:you’n’t? A:no. But I-indeed ours/it might to give given be,” I said. When(/then) ourself-we kissed. Shuddered. She vomited. Again[iteratively] kissed. She our/the catscale-hers we/it gave. I to-my Speedy Ana I leaving was texted and to hers Night sailed. It while I dressed Eight [Ghás] to-come was and that my big bulky pockets by-means-of clothes changes-of and medicine days-of filled within good-idea-being was Night agreed. (Of a “helpless this-to iterate we are’ish way type-of terrifying the sex was.)

 

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Harder than reality to-sell nothing[of-the-eternal-feminine] Red says is. Internally I “the Real” correct-to and agree. The reality to-myself that<me and Night she raped and I on oneself-other with Night fixated and into roleplay-reenacting got and fun it gave> is. The Real to myself the series of actions and of events an obvious (the-mechanism-exchange-of reality and the Real to-the bonding-of species-being-of ‘obviousness’ given is) name to-been-given is. “Masters of realness” Red writes:

“…offenders are. A recall× offender-of of side-and of back and of night-day-to-serve lit and shot is and the-rim ×that<same-again-of is> akin-to the of DiCaprio glass margarita-of that-wine-filled-is sparkles. Right that seems. How downwardly the ruin rose that is or is-indeed. But query: of when the nearest time ago the-way<itself-so He gave[ the way it should]> your r.r. misery seemed was?”

Where Red ever learned Night asked. How it so-exactly she out-set. We it she well said agreed. As just our writing so we it give. She reads. I whatever people can and write said. And my spit her eyen Night from cried and of me to not stop begged.

 

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I’m not an idiot. Second and third and subsequent effects more than the immediately real my attention occupy. But I it<toward truth-being not-is to-pretend> necessary been-found because our ve’much’ry necessary harm at the-extent of those lines we give and if one that<it hurt would knew says> then one nobody likes. Anyway I it did. But someone everything hurts. I e.g. myself non-aluminium “recyclables” at-to box recycling-of to-put will-myself not can because publicly available the ro’map’ute of the disposal trucks and what pickups MelaMix Landfill the-Region-of Landfill and which Soleíce Lake Recovery Centre go-to is and unlike of most helplessness-mine in-this-regard my gullet tastes and akin with the chlorine and chloramine <that in my tapwater [lit. iron-water] is> complaintless swallows.

 

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But I a Lie to make even still-not-ly like. When I all of this Night to-told also I of the course nobody tell said and I the fight she lost not want and plus someone<I about-care> Red is. Of what I Speedy Ana told the strokes<that broad were> the same were. But somebody× Night to-fucking-of (me-of to-fucking) ×who/same-again-who<dear friends Night accusee/er-of-with as far as all knew was> was. And our/the partner that Speedy Ana-to-with we/it gave (id est I) across-over the battlements of this mutual accusation and public discourse toward-with the pariah and the figurehead of either faction at-to-fuck and/or dear friends with was. (Dear friends to-with the woman who<her accuser/ee (me) at-to-fuck was> Red as far as all knew was.) A predicament to-with-us you/it been-gave: a predicament as<I little my “anyone not tell” from would knew> clockworked and as I in a sense chemical-of so to-happen let. Ax ios Umerycu bhie. Duílín í lebendæn or not. Who<í dúegcornffæn erlæn> yourself is. But the<whom-with the gun is> guy the mugger is and with two of airliners wide-body-of the towers down brought were and no obligation the rear-engine Pinto-of to-reinforce Ford bore. (I twelve was: fault-mine my divorce parents-of not was.) At mine Night Speedy Ana met and while to-the watching-of Sê-teo-duîm Ai’łúgr’sót but I over it my talking kept and me no-one stopped. When-indeed with jealousy from Bobby Laura confronted is and so Come just little a one says and hands-his he open [he gives up] and smiles and I you<babe-mine> love says I arm Ana-of grabbed and:

“Query: O-are-kay you are? Our a-one cuckold-being-of we gave. No ‘me’ you said.”

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Nobody laughed but Night said, “Through all of Twin Peaks three times Red been-sat, she claims.”

Then Speedy Ana paused. And in the shift of light, of the common area the dry, extracted heat singed. Retinas stung. Jaws clacked. Iron frames behind sheets of wall with paper packed groaned.

A bad-coloured sunset through stained and the woodboards soaked and my neck squealed and creaked, and undershone by the greyblue cornflower dyingways light of the lockscreen the phone the movie with paused-of the chin of Speedy Ana contoured and exaggerated and massive made. The Ana-chin my focus that little pink-tinged and fraught was filled. “I sometime to-you" the chin said...

"...to say meant but probably of-to o[both] anyway say should that I two of days ago Red met and maybe only you tell should...”

...when like the fifth of six alarms underfoot the boarding rattled and in buzz while<I and Night quick as we the call moot-of of Faer Radiance Emperor/ress-being-of Blatance of Un-Raped-being to answer could dressed>*"while" declefts* the television to steady Speedy Ana lunged. No else mattered. So soft the Aos sí tread the rumble their lives a-whit not interrupted. All-but-for in Mionchain all-and-every citizen and person and region of sapience localisable the call sounded. In their hairs (tremors of goose-being through the leyweb[l'web'ey]) it Sí caught and in our feet we. Note:you and all:hear; hear and summoned are. Note: "as-we-say" we and all the knell of the Unraped Mother[sh'parent'e] heed. You little ray Faer Eyen Avatar-of [literally: the dreamer of faer eyen, but "avatar" in Danæam = Eyen-dreamer so the "dreamer of one's eyen" is a deconstructed "avatar"; tar of one's ava] beckons.

Note:to-you the-light-being it gives. Thus we trod and thus paraded: and lilac canyons under emerald seas over: and the-Shimmerlands and the realm of festival thereto raised. Our arrival Red hailed and with leystick rivuled-through and messy the summerlight alternately crackled and oozed and oozed and crackled. In uni_son we four-of...

"Goodly the-sight of you-all given [is]”

...sang; in like fashion we bowed. Then the fugue settled.

None of our group a toe outside the-Shimmerlands for duration the moot-of ifly still-steps-will then ourselves-with Blatance through/finished was. Eyen Red-e flicked. Just the four. Faer All-Gleaning Eye[A'gle'eye'an'll] and faer parasiticity for the Rite of the-sun ourselves-us still-paired/coupled.

“Fuck[lit. child-murder]” I said. “Fine [swell].”

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Red shrugged. “The moot gives.”

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“No” Speedy Ana said. “Verbless-query:red? Query: me-r.r.carve-with carve?"

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I my most o my to-god-genuine most the words of an objection together to stitch tried but I failed. That<the same Night befell> one imagines. She stared and stared and nothing said. From her lower lid a crust of iron-coloured dew-tipped toward-thaw leystick hung. All of fuguemarch she still-blinked'nt.

“Yeah” Red said. “Fine.”

Then her arm Ana took and in bond around a cluff of mintflowers the two vanished.

 

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Of it the Anachin to tell hear: “Notice •

"Of me toward the meeting in Mionchainn of Red you forget. All it was: she to meet asked it was but in person the asking was: I at place-hers Ess to-see was."

Ax (the T'room'V nowily of a warm and delightful and sepially undertonal black by the passage of mooting of four of months undisturbed and still onto the screen Briggs Bobby-of sage grin-of plastered and to her-own Night still-been-departed) on the chin ebbed •

"A similar creature we chose. A result very nearly got.”

Of the sixteen of creatures —four of rivers and four of sky and four of land and four of deep places— newly of this moot three —one of deeps and two of rivers— of aufGaolaíách inventions created were. A new record and a landmark for aufGaolaí representation-of. Up-trill. A record that unlikely to surpassed been-will [is]. As such the election of creatures works:

With-another of faer-own clade (always faer-own minus five or so of exceptions errors-of rounding-of less eightish of million) every Faerielander paired is; so/and Wave people-with Wave people'ya and Small people-with small people-'ya and Mound people-with Mound people'ya and Uplings-with Uplings'ya.

 

 

Then faerself the company other-of each departs and the meatshrubs and featherfens and wooden forests a lifeform from carves. While yet unensouled to-its partner the form escorted is and –if feasible– their creations the pair to breed attempt must. If the mating creations-of an offspring produces then that offspring to-the election entered and tested and contested may be until (less eight of million creatures of failure) sixteen of fauna at-last survive • o to ensouled and reproduced be and to-the far wealds of Faerieland released. Lacking of the other receptivities-of and side sensitivities-of of the Sí naturally the aufGaolaí – naturally we – underperform. Too-many three was. Some social and policy backlash it generated. But who cares —you-know?

The blood-carved-ish creations of Ana and Red mated and almost bred. Together very nearly they a result got. “A sort of thing still emerged.” The-voice of Speedy Ana danced and the TV darkened and in the pitchblack of the room the chin itself lost. “But a creature in that way it wasn’t. No mouth nor locomotive means ours we gave. We to-at-of the half-not-watching-half-watching of the carvings as they fucked were and I if Red why>you and her to-talk stopped> knew asked.

"To me —quote— she said id est Red said:

"'I with-you never anything like...'

"—quote—

"‘...what I Britt did-to repeated. I heedful was always,’ she said. ‘Always...'

"—quote—

"‘...I a serious effort anything like that not to-do make’ and further • ‘I Night-with it never-gave: I her I close sometimes get told but it to-do never-gave. Always never. Small small small odds Britt Night believes. Notice I bet as she it sees Britt the same to-suicide-defame murder-instinct as she from suffers so but outside of Britt I nobody this to-did it gives.’”

 

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The-special-power of Speedy Ana not only fast she was is but the-customers too she up-sped. So quick she once six of people in-queuing got and as a-single new friend group ordering to-a-single table them glom together made and a bottle† of vodka and †one of champagne within 31 of seconds them upsold. 

As over it turns the de facto leader of the six she to-upsold Red was. Red at knockoffs Ana-of was and back at hers inside her at 100 of seconds finished. From 92 to 135 of seconds Speedy Ana finished. As-so the power of Speedy Ana was-so even that near-immortally sluggish temporal zone blast-of of Red it accelerated. 

Outmatched and of-at fear into and through her Red travelled. Contact they kept • The replies Ana-of to the replies Red-of instant and preternaturally thorough were and I the mystery <despite the astonishment of that pace *"despite" declefts*> of the-attachment of myself and of Speedy Ana Red fascinated suspect.

For-all I uranium not was I it drank and ate and in my eyen got. Query: what else I r.r.tolerate may immune-to be or tolerate?

But on me same as everybody the magic of Red worked. Something she needed and still needs and I it give can't. But last year that was: Ana and Red.

 

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“An eel with a lupine jaw my carving was. A dog with no legs the idea was but I the dog to-on land be wanted: so a ley-eel. Atmosphere to hydrogen its organs converted and its mid-air suspension inflation toward the sustainment of energy solar and ley power-of controlled. With a prehensile tongue that another of eelwolf-to/with the ma'head'te grabbed and enclosed and <from points of ejaculation ar—the-neckscruff—ound toward in-drawing <when the tongue retracted> sucked> it mated.

“A jackalope with in place of horns an ordinary thick headtop of ginger human hair on its little rabbit head the carving Red-of was and no else unusual except unlike a jackalope eggs it lay didn’t because (Red says) she that they that do forgot. So each mammals they were but all my mouth eelwolf-of on ginger locks to-of-close and to-of-clamp the neck and dry to-of-drink and with blood jackaloid-of its eelwolf-uterus to-fill it was.

“How carvings do the rodent also to-mate tried. Frettings and humpings nothing at: the mud and wild mint under. Until the bunny limp kicked Red watched then/when —one of funny thing was— she said…

“‘A profile of person I away keep it gives and that profile Britt is."

“Semi each other into and out-of fingers-hers laced and she went: 

“‘You also are.’”

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I “Query: how the type of Red r.r.makes to-be you feel makes?” said.

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"Then/when so. So."

In a sweep of light traffic-of through the cra'curtain'cks the chin of Speedy Ana softened and re-blued and of her forehead the cold curve my shoulder pressed and eyes toward seeking were. At each other we smiled and she said: 

“A.:obvious way. But so then...

“I if of now we go should asked given in any-case the mating failed. ‘Well— informed consent’ Red said.

“She laughing started and I so did. My hand took. In the field we fucked and tiny bits of 

teal and sapphire grassweeds all over us got and neither on the jackaloid the eelwolf choke heard. While us it watched it died. Her heart as our what that we give in it wasn’t. I topped. Maybe only you it really is. Maybe worse it makes.”

 

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I a small bird like any other carved. But more perfectly diamond its beak was and more perfectly the blue of a midday sky its feathers. By Night['s hand] a deep earth insect with a pentagonal frame was [made]. At my bird she surprised was.

“Bugs you love” she said.

•

“I in your presence the word ‘bug’ even one speaking-of made thinkn't" I said.

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“I people still-mixed. I two of people still-mixed. No.”

For bug Night-of my bird dug and yanked and into its diamond beak its pentagonal frame licked and back to symmetry crushed.

 

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After the closing festival-of of the moot at one stretch of the long fugueless trudge the Shimmerlands from I my devices checked and me on everything Night blocked saw.

I in the dark of our home so-then Speedy Ana told and she said “Maybe what<Red mentioned> it is” then/when on the carving and plea and counteraccusation and shortcomings Red-from me briefed. Night reachable not was.

And I friends Night-of aboutn't to-chase was and/or on this matter them -*read in*- with all that interviews everywhere chairing-of. I not-enough-cared. So for suddenness Night-of with all that the most good-of explanation is what a week later Red said. But to stories Red-of that quality gives.

 

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(Never Night and Red their talking stopped. (That a secret to-be-meant is.) So an account of short fling-mine and Night-of that<some narrative kinship with accusations about Red shared> Red-to/with Night gave and to that effect as evidence screenshots of a chat at-which I as Red roleplayed showed. When/then as<the story goes> Night-to/with Red pics toward the terms of-the roleplay describing-of and factily not evidence so screenshots Night-of proving-of that<I Speedy Ana-to/with sent and Red-to/with Speedy Ana sent> showed. So Red claims. 

 

 

(I the images to-see asked and she said:

"Why together not back get —'you know…"

…so toward thinking about the fingernail-sized Beag sí scarification-tattooist that<I in the days I to dungeons yet-still-went saw but never to-spoke> and I on my body where the passage from Quivering Haecceities about artificial productions of realness faer to scar ask would I homeward walked.)

 

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Our nothing in the ba'garden'ck of this barcafé that<overstaffed and underclienteled was> except-a<miniature gumtree that<in a strange amount of plastic wrapped was> and of a-faraway housefire l ash-stink ours-of we gave was>. And eyen we gave. Red eyen. Mine the-take inwarding. Palms turned she said: 

"I am. I you<to-still (my words through) raped> sorry am. I especially sorry with consideration of (me you sync-to) Haecceities Quivering-of am. I that<sort of already a fan before ourselves-us met you were> know. I imagine<not can say not will> because can and that why is. Why I sorry am is. But —sort of— us-each-to/with our things[whats-those-of] people a_bout to not about talk need you give [it gives]. Which why friendly we act can is. Can. Friend-being we bear.”

Her palms unturned and back-turned and into each-other floated and aloft leaves stuck. 

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“I it get do” I said. “Things I get it gives."

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"In terms of me. In-terms-of options.”

An hour and another we talked and if<I a minute later departed> the funeral that night-of without me might still-started-been. 

No idea this ex Red knew. 

Late the train until<Red running came> was. Then/when into sight it popped. Just for her materialised. 

“Notice: it you ignore” she said and of breath empty was. “You late be will. Note: I drive. We to the singular place going are: I remembered.”

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“Echo: are?”

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“The-funeral-same-yes.”

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I the train on-waved. Why not mean. With pointing and nodding:

“Note:you-lead.”

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To hand Red-of a solitary unchained remote car-of entered.

“My ex we give. Our funeral.”

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“Me telling she eternally-never-gave,” true that amount was.

On mini Red-of the stripes faded were and of shopping-bags the backseat full was. 

"She to-myself ex-being gives-in-turn" I said.